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In February 2010, Terence was diagnosed with Acute Myleoid Leukemia. We started this blog to share what we have learned about God's amazing love, about relationships, and about life. The story recently came out in paperback and Kindle on Amazon.
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Friday, April 3, 2015

No Evidence


On this date four years ago, we moved up to Denver and I was admitted into the University of Colorado Hospital to undergo bone marrow transplant for leukemia. It was a dark time, and although we had great faith, this was an unknown journey. I went up to that same hospital today to do my annual labs to confirm leukemia is all gone. It is often that I do these labs around Easter each year and realize the deep connection between what Jesus did for me spiritually and what happened physically in bone marrow transplant. This understanding I have is only because heaven has whispered this insight in incredible ways.

As some of you know, my donor was my sister Bonita. She was a perfect match for me. A miracle in just that event. The goal of bone marrow transplant is to be 100% donor converted in your bone marrow. That is, it is typically not a good outcome to have both diseased stem cell DNA and donor stem cell DNA mixed in the bone marrow. Every year I get my labs done, the clinical staff does a very complete blood panel. One of the tests is to see if there is any evidence of my diseased blood DNA. With a female donor, there is one easy way to check that. We all have 23 pairs of chromosomes with the gender chromosome listed as an XY (male) or XX (female). In my case, the result comes back as 46 XX. That means 23 pairs of chromosomes with the gender chromosome now an XX (female). But here is the line of the lab result that always impacts me: “no evidence of pre-bone marrow transplant host disease.” You see, right before I accepted my sister’s stem cells, the hospital took a sample of my bone marrow with diseased leukemia in it. And now when they do this test each year, they compare that sample from April 2011 to the current sample. What this result means is that this test has the ability to see if there is any of the diseased marrow left in my body and the conclusion is absolutely not! There is no evidence of the former diseased blood. So here is the spiritual insight.

Even if you are not a Christ follower, you have probably heard, especially around Good Friday and Easter, messages about the blood of Jesus. And at some point might have even heard things like “being washed in the blood,” “being born again,” and “how Christ forgives us of our sins because of the blood sacrifice he did on the cross.” These are all hard concepts to understand and certainly very strange language. As a Christ follower, I really never understand the deepness of these concepts, until my own bone marrow transplant.

When we accept Christ into our lives and he forgives us of our sins, he is essentially giving us a spiritual bone marrow transplant. We are taking on his identity by accepting him as Lord of our lives. 2 Corinthians 5:21 tells us this: “God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” How can that be, you ask? It is just like the lab test I receive each year that says, “no evidence of your previous disease.” The evidence of that test essentially shows that I have my sister’s blood DNA composition. When we accept Christ, God now looks upon us and sees the spiritual DNA composition of Jesus. He doesn’t see our previous diseased life! Our old life has been made pure by Jesus. That is the spiritual bone marrow transplant that Jesus does for us. We are new just as 2 Corinthians 5:17 says it: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come. The old has gone, the new is here.” Several years ago I seemed to hear God say to me, “Don’t you think if I can design your body in such a way and give medical science the ability to do this miraculous transformation of the physical blood that I can figure out a way to do the same transformation in the spiritual realm?” I was blown away by that thought.

And this story is made even more powerful on Easter Sunday when Jesus came back to life and now transforms us every day. We get the gift of his identity and our old diseased life is gone. There is no evidence of it when we are truly transformed by the blood of Christ and what he did on the cross for us. I hope you will think about that this Easter weekend.

Amazed by His Love,

Terence

Friday, February 20, 2015

Forgiven

Zachary (our 8 year old) and I are in an Easter production at our church called The Thorn (http://thethorn.net/). We have sat in the audience for this amazing story and drama about the life of Jesus. A few years ago, after Zachary watched it with us, he said, “Daddy, can we be in The Thorn some day?” Working out schedules and plans, we are able to do it together this year. We are part of the general crowd that witnesses the miracles of Jesus as well as his death and resurrection portrayed in this amazing story.

It has been an amazing experience for both of us as we are involved in the miracles of Jesus. As he heals the sick, a blind man, a young girl who is dying, and many others, I am in awe of the love shown by this son of God – Jesus. Another moving part is when an adulterous woman is brought to Jesus and all of us are yelling, “stone her, stone her.” She is thrown down on the floor and Jesus walks up to her, talks to her, and forgives her. All of us in the crowd and the Pharisees are stunned that he would do such a thing (at least that is our role we are acting out). This scene really touched me deeply and got me thinking about forgiveness. The next morning I was reading in Luke 7 where Jesus is anointed by a sinful woman. The essence of the story is that a woman comes to the house of Simon the Pharisee and anoints Jesus with a jar of perfume, weeping, and wiping his feet with her hair. It is an incredible act of love. Simon the Pharisee is shocked that Jesus would let this woman do this. I love the parable Jesus tells next and the interaction with Simon in Luke 7: 41-43:

Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?” Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.” “You have judged correctly,” Jesus said.

Some have read this passage as Jesus then forgiving her sins because of this act. In other words she had to “work” for it. But that doesn’t seem right given the parable he just told. The parable talks about two owing money and both debts are forgiven. Then Jesus illustrates, through a question and Simon’s answer, that the one with the bigger debt will love more. The essence of this story then is that this woman had been forgiven a huge debt (her sin) and she was expressing huge love.

This act of love in response to her recognizing that Jesus was the source of her forgiveness really impacted me. And it was watching the scene in The Thorn of the adulteress woman where she turns after having been forgiven and has the most stunning expression of love and wonder on her face. Although it was just a practice session for an upcoming Easter production, it was incredible to watch. It reminds me of how much I am forgiven every day and what my response should be. I don’t have to earn this forgiveness. Jesus gives it freely and it should motivate our love response. And the more we are forgiven, the greater the love.

Amazed by His Love,


Terence